Who am I?
I am a Mom and a Wife. Mom to one sweet, perfect angel baby, Marshall James. Wife to Kenny, a man that is most loving and caring – a man I can’t imagine my life without. I am a daughter, sister, niece, cousin and friend to a lot of loving, amazing, caring and supportive people. I am a believer of a loving God. I am a Christian.
Why am I writing & sharing?
I have always been a person that finds solace in talking about and sharing anything that bothers or hurts me. I contemplated beginning a blog sometime, nearly a year ago, when I was just over a year into my journey of infertility. I wrote a few random pieces but held off actually sharing and beginning a blog, for hope that my infertility journey would end quickly. It did, I became pregnant after only 17 months and three rounds of fertility drugs, my first round of treatment from the actual Fertility doctor. Yes, I say “only”, because there are so many women whose infertility journey lasts for many years and entail so much more than three rounds of fertility drugs, for these women I pray constantly and daily.
On February 2nd 2018, 13 days before my February 15 due date, we lost our baby at 38 weeks to an umbilical cord accident. Today is 12 days since we lost our baby. It’s all too fresh and raw right now, but I am again feeling the nudge to write and share my journey of grief.
I am not sure what direction my writing will go in or how often I’ll share, but I suspect it will be often for a while. I have a lot to share about the years, days and moments before February 2nd 2018, that day and the days after, the journey of grieving a loss I never once imagined. I have a lot to tell you about everything I had, and still have, to be grateful for. I am growing in my faith; I will probably share a lot about this journey too. It might be clunky and it might not make sense at times, but I think this will help me in my grieving process and I hope somewhere along the way, it helps someone else in some way too.
“There are moments which mark your life: when you realize nothing will ever be the same and time is divided into two parts: before and after this.” Unknown
A bible verse:
“Though I have fallen, I will rise. Though I sit in darkness, the lord will be my light.” (Micah 7.8)